I get duper impatient doing things like paper work and such, example: i sucked at school because of writing essay and taking exams regardless of my interest in the subject, had it been more hands on i would've done fine. If someone needs a message from me its on skype because fuck writing letters. I can't concentrate.
 
My faults are that I am super self-conscious at times. I'm not overweight or anything, I just have very bad social anxiety. I also tend to stutter and overreact when I talk to new people.
I also seem to always feel depressed when I know I didn't do something right or if I didn't do anything I really want to do.
Every day, I love challenging myself. I want to break out of my anxiety and become a more social person.
 
That explains it, but it isn't Smash brothers if you don't have items, am I right? Or wrong?

Ive heard that the more "serious" and competitive players dont play with items.

I liked playing with items, but only certain ones. I definitely turn off the ones I hate, haha.
 
Despite my fun loving outward disposition I can be incredibly condescending and brutal on people. At times it makes it seem like I'm attacking some one if we have varied of different views which isn't the case it's just some of my bad judgement which is another thing to add to the list. Due to my popularity it's made me nearsighted that could lead to one argument or another, I'll try to fix it as best as I can especially now that I am with some one. Being neutral and fair is something to work on and I have been trying to do so, everyone deserves a second chance anyways.

Sometimes being put on the spot it's hard to think about what you want to say other than try to be defensive. Which in most cases wouldn't be right especially if it's just talking about various things and likes even with jokes it can be hard to distinguish them due to my lack of judgement guess that's what happens when you fuck around with gang members. Meeting various people on xat, the forums or on discord has made it easier to remain calm and I'll continue to work on it.
 
Speaking of hanging around with bad influences, I used to do that a lot, and it got me into some really hairy situations. The wild and dangerous car rides I found myself trapped in, the totally moronic stunts some of my friends would pull, and the nasty things they would say about others... In fact, some of them are still saying those nasty things today. It always made me feel so awkward and dirty. These days I just keep to myself, I'm true to myself, and I am completely independent of thought.

My heart goes out to anyone trapped in the hells of peer pressure. The biggest challenge is how to break it off and become your own man/woman. It's a nightmare.
 
Ive heard that the more "serious" and competitive players dont play with items.

I liked playing with items, but only certain ones. I definitely turn off the ones I hate, haha.

I guess I can see that, I don't play very competitively, but I do enjoy a good match of Smash Bros against my friends.
 
One flaw of mine that I have really been starting to notice again recently is that I'm very...not exactly paranoid, but uberly careful, like I'm the guy that checks five times to see if he really did lock the door before he goes to work in the morning.

It doesn't happen with that many things, but it does sometimes grate on me, because I have such a hard time just checking once and feel assured with some things.
 
My mouth and temper tends to get me in trouble sometimes. I've gotten into a argument with someone on a different website several months ago that ended with them blocking me (it was my fault) and I admittedly took things too far and said some pretty mean things to them under a sock puppet account. Eventually I started to feel bad for what I've said and wrote them a apology letter about a month later.
 
Im not always good at like... "being there" for friends I have made online. I mean like, Im not always responsive for when they want to talk about a problem. And its due to several reasons. I already deal with this alot in my personal life. Like, I have a mother who is sick and cant even go to the grocery store on her own. I have a close friend irl who deals with substance abuse and family issues. And I have to deal with them often already. And I have what I guess you could call a large group of friends online, depending on the person : p Some of them are obviously more personal than the others, and like they are people that Im closer to, and due to the time weve been friends and the junk weve been through Im sorta expected to take more time for them than others : p

And also, I deal with alot of my own issues too. And on top of that, I cant really talk them out like other people can, or seem to want to do. And theres a few reasons for that, too. One big thing with me, it actually causes guilty feelings in me to do that : p And thats not a judgement on anyone else or anything, before anyone takes that personally or whatever : p Im talking about with me. I kinda feel that people, or most people, already have alot they deal with on their own, and dont really want to deal with my issues too : p And I really dont like making it feel like Im putting on a show of my issues and junk.
And Im not even saying that to get people to encourage me to do so, btw : p Its a personal thing for me and Im not really looking to change it : p Its just that this also affects me and how I deal with others when they come to me with problems, too.

Alot of times, when I engage with friends, Im doing it to find like.... release from problems that Im facing. And not in the way of telling them my problems, but as in like just having fun with them, and being able to forget mine for a little while : p So I often find difficulties when other people come to me with theirs, and alot of times Ill end up just turning away and leaving for a few days.

I mean of course there are exceptions to this, like if its a problem I can relate to, something thats personal to me that I can understand, Im much more likely to take the time to try to help in SOME way. But yeah, Im sure alot of people think Im ignoring them when I do that, when Im really just trying to deal with my own issues in my own way : p

Im not really justifying it, I dont really know how in the right or in the wrong I am. Its not that I dont care, and sometimes Ill talk things out with people. But at the same time, sometimes I feel like Im not in the place to do that, and need to get away from problems for a bit. It doesnt seem to be the way most other people handle their problems, though : p

Interaction with people can be tiring sometimes, but at the same time, I often feel like I really need it, and even become stressed when I dont have it : p
 
Online interactions have to come second for me. I love talking with people (especially here), but I really can't dedicate too much time to anyone.
I'm trying to support my family and get my career started before I turn 30. That's going to take a LOT of elbow grease, so you can understand just how strict I need to be with my priorities.
 
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