Your faults

I'm mad every time... I can't control my anger because this is too difficult. I can't control myself when I'm angry and this is happening almost every time, every time.. I'm stressed and this is making me so depressed so life isn't easy. Why ?


Because I don't have any strawberry cake to eat !! :'(
 
One problem Ive been dealing with alot lately is being angry towards people. Lately I feel like everyone I know is just a freaking know-it-all, who jumps at the chance to prove that youre wrong about everything in order to show just how wise they are to everyone. And that they do it with the smallest, most meaningless things and are often not even right anyways.

Ive been feeling more bitter with people lately. In the past I feel like I was good at letting such things go and not caring, but lately its been making me really unhappy. Am not yet sure how to deal with this issue before I break and start calling everyone a jerk : /

Its especially bad when Im just being playful or making a joke, and they come in to "correct me", when Im clearly being inaccurate or whatever for the sake of humor.
 
I try to make everyone happy, I try to fix things all the time, and I can't seem learn the lesson that you can't please everyone. Makes me feel good to be of help, but it hurts me more to lose people I tried to help or cared for. My problem is that I've stopped doing that in the past, caring for others, but that resulted in me being alone for 2 years. Was I happy? Yes, I was, but something huge was missing. So what to do? How can I be well with everyone? How can I get along?

Maybe I'm just too cold and logical in the way I handle things...
 
For real, I don't trust anybody... I'm serious, when I'm saying, anybody, I'm talking about everyone on Earth. No one is in my trust list except myself of course.
My septic level is over 100 000 000 ! I'm so septic, that when I'm shaking hands with someone at school or anywhere else, I want to wash my hand directly and I'm panicking a little when I can't do it directly... I don't like touching someone because I don't know what this person did before shaking my hand.
Maybe that's why I don't have any friends IRL... no really, I don't have a single friend. But that's fine, since I absolutely don't trust anybody, I guess I'm better off alone.
 
IvPolaris said:
For real, I don't trust anybody... I'm serious, when I'm saying, anybody, I'm talking about everyone on Earth. No one is in my trust list except myself of course.
My septic level is over 100 000 000 ! I'm so septic, that when I'm shaking hands with someone at school or anywhere else, I want to wash my hand directly and I'm panicking a little when I can't do it directly... I don't like touching someone because I don't know what this person did before shaking my hand.
Maybe that's why I don't have any friends IRL... no really, I don't have a single friend. But that's fine, since I absolutely don't trust anybody, I guess I'm better off alone.
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Shaking hands is a risky and futile custom. Throughout my life I've witnessed so many dirty slobs who don't wash their hand after using a public toilet, it's ridiculous and filthy... And yet YOU'D be the "rude" one for refusing to shake a stranger's hand! It should be reserved for people you know personally, like hugging.
 
IvPolaris said:
For real, I don't trust anybody... I'm serious, when I'm saying, anybody, I'm talking about everyone on Earth. No one is in my trust list except myself of course.
My septic level is over 100 000 000 ! I'm so septic, that when I'm shaking hands with someone at school or anywhere else, I want to wash my hand directly and I'm panicking a little when I can't do it directly... I don't like touching someone because I don't know what this person did before shaking my hand.
Maybe that's why I don't have any friends IRL... no really, I don't have a single friend. But that's fine, since I absolutely don't trust anybody, I guess I'm better off alone.
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I understand, i used to be that way.
Go out there and find a friend, its difficult and you feel like you are placing yourself in danger but if can find a good friend they'll help you out in a tight spot. Only then will you realize their are people out their who you can trust.
90% of people can't be trusted though. :)
 
Sometimes i feel unworthy of all the great things i have in life. Like i didn't earn my happiness, freedom, love, etc. I don't know why i get this feeling like everything in life was handed to me. But of course i took that happiness being the opportunistic one i am, Like i have to take all the great things by force because i have even though i don't want to do it but then i'll never get the things i want in life. It's like a curse to be an asshole otherwise the universe will be an asshole to me, like reverse karma. Now don't get me wrong, i'm flawed but i wouldn't consider myself an asshole but when i cruise through life easily its those times i feel like i'm sitting on a thrown that isn't mine. Like a spoiled rich kid who had everything spoon fed to him in life and when it comess time to man up he clammed up because the world was too cruel and he wanted to be liked by everyone. Not because of any merits he achieved but because he is who he is, One of Mother Nature's beautiful children. Its then that i feel not like a beautiful child of the earth but an abomination who cares only for himself and refuses to give back to the world. Its like i need adversity to care the most other if i don't have problems i'll make them up and become emotional over nothing. Its like i'm a kid trapped in a 27 year old's body. I only got this old by waiting for my birthday's but is my physical form representative of my true maturity. Was i spoon fed a man's body too? Was i spoon fed my job? My house? My wife? my dog? my relatives? My own conscious? Am i worthy of being a being that lives in this wonderful world only to be given the ability to hurt others, But then again i could be looking at it the wrong way. Maybe its the ability of self defense. But is it always justified? My need to show dominance in the face of danger, Should i stand up for myself. Or just take on the suffering so as to not step on someone elses toes. I tend to square up and i'm confident that was the right choice, But what if these monsters are like me and we react to defend what we have which at the core may be all the same. Its as if beat someone down is actually beating me down. and my oponents aren't real but a projection of me. Maybe its all a projection, a projection to teach me about myself before i wake up from this life and make a real change in the universe.



That was awfully rambly and i hope i made sense, I was just typing it as it came too me.
 
I'm quite sure you're not the only person who feels as though you've earned nothing you have, nor the only person who feels like a child trapped in a body that won't stop aging, for what that's worth. These don't seem to be uncommon feelings. I don't know what makes anyone any more deserving of these things than anyone else, to be frank. I recommend taking what life provides you in stride, instead of worrying about whether you should have any of it.
 
I've developed a bit of an insecurity of feeling like I'm not well read enough or passionate about things to be able to discuss things with others. It's made me afraid to talk to others even people I already know and also afraid to join new communities.
 
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Magma said:
I've developed a bit of an insecurity of feeling like I'm not well read enough or passionate about things to be able to discuss things with others. It's made me afraid to talk to others even people I already know and also afraid to join new communities.
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When it comes to things I dont really know or understand very well yet, I usually admit off the bat that Im not very knowledgeable about the subject, and am more willing to listen to what others have to say about it. And I usually welcome their thoughts too, and if I disagree with some part of it, Ill usually follow it up with "though I dont know much about it", which usually helps people from getting defensive : p

The good thing about not knowing much about a topic, or having much to say, is that it can lead to having something for others to talk to you about, and make them feel more happy about talking to you because they got to share something to a good listener : p It can be an advantage for meeting new people in a way, imo.
 
I'm not sure if this registers as a fault, per se, but I always get extremely bitter when I hear dreadful news involving terrorism or man-made misery occurring somewhere. It's an unshakable frustration with the way of the world, and the fact we can't escape the destructive idiocies of mankind.
 
It's hard to say, really. I find getting used to these sorts of things to be rather alarming and sadly that's been sort of happening to me lately.
 
Magma said:
It's hard to say, really. I find getting used to these sorts of things to be rather alarming and sadly that's been sort of happening to me lately.
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I can relate to this, actually. Like I have times where I am shocked and feel angry. But there are also times where I feel like its no surprise. I dont know why it has such an impact on me one day, and then barely affects me the other. It can make you feel guilty, though.
 
Angler of Lake Asparagus said:
I'm not sure if this registers as a fault, per se, but I always get extremely bitter when I hear dreadful news involving terrorism or man-made misery occurring somewhere. It's an unshakable frustration with the way of the world, and the fact we can't escape the destructive idiocies of mankind.
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So true. But if you are feeling like this often, you may want to take comfort in the thought that humanity -as a species- is, was (and will probably forever be), extremely vile and despicable.
 
When i get mad about something, major or minor i have to try really hard not to stomp the ground like a kid, throw stuff or punch someone. Don't get me wrong i've got it completely under control but i sometimes feel like having to actively restrain myself in some of these situations is kinda bad.
 
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