long story short. I told my best friend years ago that being an admin can sometimes lead to bad things. He becomes an admin and starts being harsh towards me and my friends. Now it grew to a point where he doesn't ever want to talk or play with me as he rather hang out with his other friends who are also admins. So a really long argument happened and we're not longer friends.
You shouldn't worry about sounding depressed. You should be worried about BEING depressed. Don't try to hide it for our sake. If you need support, we're here. And if you no longer need support, that's good.
That's a pretty natural feeling, but it's a misguided one. After all, it wasn't you who started being hostile towards him. He's the one who mistreated you once he gained power, correct?