Congratulations for your birthday. I know is late, but nonetheless, I hope that you had a wonderful birthday. That life has been treating you well. Im glad to know that you got out of your toxic relationship. There are some times that we end up asking ourselves if we had any kind of value on our past relationships, if there is something that the other person had with us, or even we sometimes forgot about ourselves...and is not about the other person making ourselves valuable. We already are, we have our strenghts and our value, and love should be two people that keep growing themselves deciding to join forces with love and understanding on a same journey, not a "save me" kind of deal. I hope that when the time comes, you get to join your journey with someone who loves you, who values you and who you equally love and value. I hope that the bad parts that are to come, and the struggles, make you stronger, and that the good parts make you value even further what you have, and what you are.
Blessings