tahutoa: Naa or Naa
All this time I thought that many things I could think to say would somehow miraculously warrant or incite discussion. Which was incredibly fuckin' arrogant of me. On top of this, nearly everything I seemingly had to say was completely pointless, and fucking stupid, ironically enough.
Reading back at some of these posts, I'm seriously embarrassed by them. I share too much information that no one cares about, and despite not really ever trying to cause trouble, as a result of being a useless waste of space for so long, I'd been obnoxious enough to get the general population to feel at the very least a mild dislike towards me, and as such even a slight misstep could cause the thin ice I've been on to form cracks in it (from the sheer weight of my extremely large backlog of shitty posts).
By far the worst casualty of my annoying behavior has been compromising my friendship with stupidface. Or, seemingly, at any rate-- he still hasn't spoken to me. I'm hoping that, if he is indeed sick of me like everyone else, then eventually I'll have enough worth as a waacolyte to be worth his time again.
I suppose that, from this point onward, not only would it be best for me to only ever post in the same fashion as most other members of the forum do, but to be honest I think I'd prefer that path at this point, because as it stands a bunch of people either don't care for or outright dislike me, for reasons that I could've done something to prevent.
I suppose that more than anything I just wanted to speak about anything at all, but at the same time, have other people see it as well. The approach I took was fucking retarded, of course, and most of all cheap: if I wanted to earn an audience with my garbage I should've posted those things on Twitter, and yes, I did have a Twitter, and
GOD I SEE WHY YOU PEOPLE HATE ME. but the intention was there.
I'll admit that I'm an idiot, and a stupidass sperg, but, I'm going to do what's needed, for my own mental health if nothing else.
I really wish that my foresight wasn't so autistically inhibited. I want to change my profile picture back to my original WL3 String Wario picture to symbolize this shift.