I have been thinking the past few days, sometimes it's better to not react to something and let people say what they want, whether or not it's true, intead os reacting to everything, causing a commotion and being overly emotional and whiny. I'm not used to these kinds of conflicts and while it doesn't excuse my unbarable behavior from last time, it does show me that keeping a distence from the forums for a while and overthinking the things that happened was a good choice, so I could take the time to think.
I have noticed that I have been far easier to antagonize in recent times and that kind of behavior isn't tolerable, especially since everyone else here is handling these things far better, so I'm going to be more passive in the future, it's whenever I'm in some sort of conflict when I blow up, so I'm just going to ignore that stuff from now on (even if I'm mentioned in some way) and do my own thing.
You guys have been so tolerant with me about this that I feel like I owe it to you to try and reform, rather then just throw my hat and say I'm done, sometimes it's better to just let things slide and not try to make a big thing out stuff that really doesn't affect anything in the long run.
I have made mistakes with the way I handled things in recent times, but learning from mistakes is a part of life and I'm willing to learn.