Those of you who laughed AT, that laughed WITH, those who spit my name the way the Emperor does that of Luke's "precious rebellion," and those to whom I am just kinda *there*, thank you for enduring all this suffering. I've started this thread
https://warioforums.com/threads/the-tahutoa-thread.3385/ to continue my terrarrrr somewhere less disruptive. because like omg so sick of carrying. But feel free to drop by! Or make posts on this page, which I'll continue to respond to, possibly to Magma's dismay.
...It's honestly so foreign to me, being in a place where someone is there to even feel animosity towards me-- an experience I haven't had since grade school, and I must thank you all for placing me in your memory banks. Outside of my immediate family I only have a couple friends and even those are just acquaintances, so it's cool to have someone to talk to. I'm honestly kind of annoyed that I AM a forum-dweller, for lack of a better term, since I was the sort of fag that made fun of D&D players when I was younger-- blissfully unaware that my comparatively more worldly best friend and I were relatively outcasted-- possibly because of our interests. but then there was also John-- *anyway.*
...sheeit nigga, it's just *nice to be somewhere that I feel like I belong,* at least to some extent, as cliche as that sounds. I proudly wave the waabulous wario forums flag, and internally, probably wear my usership like a badge of honor, because I'm gay; being an introvert, I rather like flying solo, but at the end of the day humans are social creatures, and having some punk make fun of me in a way that could only happen if I've made *some* sort of impression is a lot better than getting the occasional 'this person liked' on SC or 'this person reblogged' on Tumblr. The fact that I still remember this one girl saying "okay but this totally slaps?" kind of reinforces my relatively lonely experience.
Ironically, given my introverted status, I am a goddamn attention whore. Granted, I'm not so desperate as to purposefully throw myself down two flights, but I like it when people like me, and get disheartened when people don't, nigga. I ALREADY KNOW I DON'T MATTER? But HELL IF I GIVE A FUCK. There's music to make and people to make listen to it!
There's not really a way to end this particular tome that I'd feel satisfied with, but then, *this isn't the end.*
I'm pretty sure that it's the former, but the way that it was worded had me almost react with an Angry emoji and now I kind of feel bad :< sorry