I'm realizing that my aversion to anxiety & confrontation is kind of obnoxious, because even now, in moments where I'm retaliating to false claims with style, I wonder if I should've replied at all, because this way I risk getting a malicious reply, which would probably make me cry and also kill me, or worse, one that somehow calls out some deep part of me that I didn't know was there. In this case, it's a legitimate fear; this person is wrong, but then again, what if they aren't? What if they say something that cuts me to my core, and unearths a part of me I didn't even know was there?